March 2013
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Half of me wants to stay right where I am, in this stressful place because it’s all that I know. There’s something comforting in daily routine and sameness. Like perhaps everything isn’t as bad as it appears, that maybe these things just take time to fix themselves. The other half wants me to leave and never come back, to forget everything about this place that I call home and settle somewhere...
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Do you ever feel trapped?
Do you eveer feel trapped? So trapped that you don’t even know if you’re really happy or just familiar? Lately, I can’t seem to tell the difference. I mean, sometimes he makes me smile. But others i have to fake it. I don’t think I want to go back to what I had before him, though. I just wish I handled things differently. Maybe if I had closure, I wouldn’t feel this...
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October 2012
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September 2012
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Breakdown.
I hate school. I hate school work. I hate actual work. My job sucks. My manager is a cunt. I don’t really care for people. I don’t want to do anything. I’m overwhelmed. I’m tired. I have no time to do anything. I always have to be somewhere. I’m broke. Really broke. My car always needs gas. I get lost way too easily. I have no friends. I can never say the right thing....
February 2012
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January 2012
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December 2011
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Listen
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Fuck you for listening to me. For telling me everything. For texting me. For calling me to hang out. For giving me things. For spending time with me. For telling me you miss me. For wanting me in your life. Fuck you for leading me on and not even realizing. For showing me a part of you that you don’t show too often. Fuck you for not letting any of these things mean nearly as much to you as...
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It kills me how you talk to her. She doesn’t know you like I do. It isn’t fair how she makes you feel so carefree. Life isn’t like that. She doesn’t see the things I do when I’m with you. She doesn’t experience you in the same ways that I have. Of course your relationship is effortless; you don’t know each other. When we fight, it kills me. It kills me...
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Love is a stupid concept. Give all of yourself to another person and trust them not to break you. When they break you, and they WILL break you, you become everything you swore you would never be. In the end, everyone learns the same lesson; trust no one. Not even yourself.
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You’re a fucking idiot. I cared about you so much, I would have done anything for you. I counted on you and confided in you. You were the one I turned to when the world went dark. I thought I could trust you, I ignored the voices telling me you weren’t different. You turned out to be just like all the rest. I trusted you and you used me.
November 2011
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Look, Hun, keep running your mouth. Keep talking shit like it don’t stink. You’re more obsessed with that boy than I could ever pretend to be. Life lesson: The more you try to make me look insane, the crazier your fat ass seems. I’m just looking out. Unlike you, I’m gunna keep it real. Yeah, I like him, but you love him. You cry over him. Still. Get your fat ass over the...
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I don’t think you understand. You don’t understand what it feels like to always be put second. It rips people apart and breaks them down to nothing. I’m done being treated like shit. It’s impossible to recover from, but I’m going to have to try. Even if that means shutting the rest of the world out, that’s what I’ll do. I have to rebuild myself. I have to...
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It’s disgusting. It’s disgusting how you are persuing a girl like that. It’s disgusting how much of a hypocrite you’re being. It’s disgusting how you ignored my advice. It’s disgusting how you are willing to break your own heart. It’s disgusting how you think I’ll be there for you when things with her get rough. It’s disgusting how I have to...
October 2011
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I hate how being just friends is good enough for you. I hate how you joke around just like we used to. I hate how you just go on like it doesn’t hurt you.
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He was her best friend. The one who made her laugh when she didn’t feel like smiling. The one who hade her feel so secure, when she was scared. & the one, who she fell completely in love with.
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I am the kind of girl who enjoys the chase. I get a thrill when it comes to winning someone over and making them fall in love with me. Then when rough times in a relationship emerge, I run off kicking and screaming. I analyzed my actions once. I came to the conclusion that I’m afraid of getting too close to someone because I’m scared to get hurt. When a boy takes one step forward, I...
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I hate being alone. I admit it. I’m clingy and constantly crave the attention of those who seem so well off and perfect. It’s terrible because we really shouldn’t depend on anybody but ourselves. I put up such a strong facade, nobody would believe I could ever be sad or alone. I’ve worked hard to achieve that status and even harder to keep reassuring people it’s real....
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Sometimes the only thing that people see is what you did. When in fact, they should be looking at why you did it.
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September 2011
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What do you do when you’re not good enough for the only person you want to be with? Being alone forever seems like the only option at this point..
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Along the way, I’ve learned that you can’t let anyone in too far and you can’t trust endlessly. The biggest mistake you can make is to care or love someone more than yourself, because then you are setting yourself up for disappointment. Boundaries are necessary so that you can protect yourself, because once you’re broken, you’ll never fully be fixed.
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I thought I could listen to you for hours. Listen to anything, just as long as it was coming from you. But then your words began to sound like excuses. Excuses for things that were unnecessary. I’m tired of the games and I’m even more tired of the excuses. Your most recent excuse was the most interesting. it made me think, a lot. It was also the last excuse i will ever hear from you.
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Make a promise, please; you’ll always be in reach. Just in case I need, you’re there when I call. This is all so new, seems too good to be true. Could this really be a safe place to fall?
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He was not my boyfriend. On the other hand, he wasn’t just a friend either. Instead, our relationship was elastic, stretching between those two extremes depending on who else was around, how much either of us had to drink, and other varying factors. This was exactly what I wanted, as commitments had never really been my thing. And it wasn’t like it was hard, either. The only trick was...
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Take a step back. Look at yourself. You are human. You are beautiful. You are so beautiful. And you can be anything. You can be everything. Do not hate everyone because someone broke your heart, or because your parents split up, or your best friend betrayed you, your father hit you, the kid down the street called you fat, ugly, stupid, worthless. Do not concern yourself with things you cannot...
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At this point, I should tell you that I’m not at all jealous of her. It’s just that I thought you deserved better. But then again, maybe you don’t.
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It’s probably a good thing we aren’t together anymore. But when I think about it, I get sick. Physically sick. Like, I seriously throw up. I need to be with him, even if I can’t really be with him.
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Lately, I’ve been in one state of mind. One emotion. That feeling that you get when you fall out of love. When you lose that someone you thought you would always have in your life, in that special part of your heart forever. That’s how i feel; all the time. It wont go away. You were the one person, the only person I wanted. Now, I’m simply over it. Literally, over night....
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Maybe I fell harder for you than him. Maybe I don`t love him as much. But he wants to be with me, really and truly be with me. Maybe that`s what I need.
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You know, I used to spend everyday thinking about you and dreaming about you, and every time you walked by I lost myself. Do you know what that feels like? You couldn’t possibly know what it feels like to have that person not have the same feelings back. Look, I’m sorry if you miss the way I looked at you, but I don’t miss the way you never looked at me.
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It’s starting to get easier. I don’t think of you every single second. I don’t always need to know what you’re doing. I don’t expect your texts. I don’t hope to run into you. I might just not need you anymore.
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I waited so long for this moment, the moment you were standing right before me asking what’s wrong. I had always prepared the things I would say to you when I was laying in my bed, reminded that I’m missing you like hell. I’ve prepared so many situations in my head where I could tell you that you’re an asshole and that you don’t matter to me anymore. But the moment,...
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There’s always that one person. No matter how many relationships they’ve had, how many times they didn’t respond to your text, how many times they ignored you, how many times they made you feel like you didn’t matter, how many times you sit on the floor crying because of them, or made you feel like shit; no matter how many times you say they don’t matter, deep down, every time that they text you,...
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Recently I’ve come to realize how different I am. I realized I’m heartless. The other day I caught myself reciting a new motto: trust no one but yourself. Just last week I’ve been putting my friends and everyone else before myself. Something changed. I’m doing things I shouldn’t, saying things I can never take back, hurting the ones I love. I became a cold hearted...
